...is now available at www.bdsmbooks.com.
I have to thank everyone who read it, liked it, and was kind enough to write a review of it. Two reviews were sent to the webmaster of this site, who was initially leery of offering it for sale at bdsmbooks.com because of content. Here's the email I got:
Tue 19 Apr 2005
Greetings:
Today's offer is HELL TO HEAVEN by Jaeangel, $5.25 ($5.45 later) the first book by a new author.
This is the book you nearly did not get---at least on our site. In it a submissive woman is treated with EXTREME cruelty and eventually realises her masters do not love her but only enjoy abusing her---at this point the story, which was heading to a very unpleasant 'snuff' ending, takes a completely new twist when she becomes the property of a different kind of master. I read the first chapter and was so disgusted that I read no further. However, the publisher sent me reviews from its appearance on another site - reviews which I will copy below--and as a result of that I read the whole story. And as a result of that I offer it to you. What I assumed to be a mere catalogue of cruelties turned out to be a very moving story with the perfect reason for what I still consider an unacceptable opening.
I sometimes hesitate over the stronger Merson titles, but this over overreaches even those. At least its first section does. And yet I recommend that you give it a chance. If you like torture you will, of course, enjoy the first third. That is the 'Hell' in the title. If you like a moving story of more gentle bondage and ultimate submission of a true submissive who ends up in bondage 'Heaven', then you will enjoy the rest. Nobody has to read it all, but I rather fancy many of you will, and be glad that you did, if you dare to take the plunge and embark upon it. And if you agree with the reviews, you will understand why I am offering it after all.
Review One:
'Hell To Heaven' fits right into my personal taste in BDSM fiction, which leans toward the extreme sadistic end of the spectrum. After a second read, I've now put the book into my top ten BDSM favorites. This was a great, and in many ways, unique, read for me. I highly recommend it to others.
This type of fiction appeals to my sadist side and helps me safely quest into the darker depths of the dark side of my mind. My intellect ever fascinated by the paradox.
'Hell To Heaven' is at times profoundly moving and this is because of the realism with which the vast majority of the scenes, plot and characters are portrayed. Usually I read BDSM to get turned on, and sadism and n/c abuse and especially torture do it best. I put the other parts of my nature to sleep and identify with the abusers.
In the case of 'Hell To Heaven', however, such was the plot structure and realism of the charicterizations, that i got a thrill out of Mira's sufferings and yet retained my other faculties witht he horror held precisely in balance, neither interfering with the other. It was an experience that I don't think I have felt to the same degree with any other BDSM book that I have read.
Thus all my different sides remained engaged throughout the story, with my becoming at times more moved emotionally than I can recall with other books in this genre.
Because of these qualities, the book does delineate very clearly the difference between consensual BDSM and frank abuse, and the degree of submission that some subs are not only prepared to go, but are willing and eager to go.
BF in the UK, 9.8 out of 10
Review Two:
"Hell To Heaven' is a wonderfully crafted and beautifully written story of true submission. the dedication of submissives is brought to life through initial cruelty and sadism beyond belief and in doing so it manages to achieve an exquisite balance between cruelty and tenderness. Withn the story, the adistic (or masochistic) thirst is more than quenched, through skillful prose, excellent characterization, first person narrative, and a refusal on the part of the author to shy away from the gritty nature of the darker side of human sexuality.
It also manges to touchingly portray, through salvation, the real meaning of DS and in doing so does not leave the true adherent of BDSM in any way uncomfortable. It's the perfect read for the truly sadistic follower of SSC Ds,an oxymoron it both acknowledges and embraces with great skill and grace and the careful construction of it ensures that both these desires are met throughout the story.
Arousing in the extreme, touching, emotive, always fresh and with a well-developed plot--an all around fantastic read. As a masochistic submissive, it appealed to both sides of me, the part that revels in cruelty, and the part that believes subs deserve respect.
SL in the UK, 9 out of 10
I am in no mood for jokes today, as this is something special--please tell me if you think we should have published it--just hit the reply button of this email to do so--but first be bold and give it a go so our opinion can be based on fact--
http://www.bdsmbooks.com/listoffers.htm
Enjoy
Pentland
webmaster/editor
pentland@electronic-businesses.org
Always glad to look at samples of work by new authors or respond to replies to this email--yes, you can answer it just like any other.
As a result of this unusual missive, sales of my book skyrocketed at this particular website; an email I got from my publisher this morning told me I've sold over 30 copies! When I first wrote this story and published it here at the Library I didn't expect it to go as far as it did, or touch so many people.
The reason I'm posting this extremely long post is to express my appreciation to all my readers and reviwers, many of whom are on this site. I can't thank all of you enough for reading, for writing a review, and for buying it. Thanks go especially to Jinn, who chose to put this up here at the Library in the first place!!! For everyone who has written a review, even if you don't see it here; thank you. It wasn't a waste. Your reviews helped others realize the book's value. Every review helps. I appreciate more than I can express, and I hope all my writing meets your expectations!
Sincerely,
Jaeangel