Under New Management or Meeting A New Dom

[Jadetiger]

Saracen tasked me with making a zipper then using it. First my left breast then my right. First my experience with making the zipper.

I will say it was stressful. I had the start over a few times before I finally got it completed. It took me 4 hours to make it and it didn’t really turn out well. It is my firm belief that the Dom should have to make the toys that he will use to torture his sub with, that way at least he gets to feel some of the pain.

Saracen had stated to start at the nipple and work my way out in a spiral then once complete to pull them off like a zipper. He said to start with the left breast first then to do the right breast.

I started with my left breast placing the peg on my nipple. It was already sore from our nipple play from the night before. I realized that I may fail the task. My nipple hurt and I didn’t think I could keep the peg on it for long. I started attaching the other pegs as fast as I could gritting my teeth as the pain in my nipple keep growing. I stopped for a second and took a couple of deep breaths to try and relax a little. My hands where trembling so bad from the pain that I was having a hard time handling the pegs. I tried to focus and grabbed the next peg to continue. It took what seemed like forever to get them on. I realized then that I was not at all turned on by the pain and that I really didn’t like this at all. I knew the worst was yet to come when I got to the end and had the pull the string. As I pulled the pegs off there was a feeling of bruised and torn skin. I kept telling myself that I was the stupid one who wanted to explore pain. By the time I got to the nipple I hated the zipper and was extremely unhappy with myself for not realizing what kind of pain the zipper was going to cause. I pulled the last peg off. I have to admit that I was pleased with myself for not saying all the bad words I was thinking in my mind out loud.

The right breast was even harder to peg. My fingers just didn’t want to work. I stopped trying to make it look like a spiral and just concentrated on getting the damn pegs on so I could get it over with. I knew then I was not a true pain slut and torture was really something that did not turn me on but I would finish my Dom’s task. Saracen deserved my best effort. When I started pulling of the pegs I realized what a silly child I was in regards to the BDSM world. I now have an even deeper respect for those would can endure this kind of pain because I am not one of them. I resisted the urge to throw the zipper in the trash and instead put it in a drawer as a reminder of all the things it taught me about myself.

I have to thank Saracen for my task. It open my eyes to many things about myself I did not know. I do have a very strong submissive nature that forces me to want to complete my tasks to serve my Dom. That I am not a pain slut in any sense of the word, as I understand it. Pain does not turn me on nor is it a mental challenge for me. I truly felt stupid for continuing my task and the only thing that made me complete it was the fact that I wanted to earn Saracen’s respect.

New Jade motto: Be careful what you wish for. You just might get it.

Jade