here is the background to the question. it was my birthday last week, and when everyone asked what i wanted, i said - nothing. because there is nothing physical that they can give me that i really want. i mean i appreciate the presents i got, of course i did! but i dont really WANT anything.

now i got to thinking about this.
a) do i not want 'things' just because i dont trust other people to get things that i like?
b) am i sick of 'things' because i really cant have the 'things' i want?
OR
and this thought came to me this evening
c) MAYBE this is a step in my growth as a slave, maybe i dont want 'things' because as a slave i am not entitled to 'things'.
and all i really want is my MAsters love and approval to be happy.

what do you think?

or am i just going through a zen phase that i will grow out of?

blu