Hello need2belong and welcome to the Forum.

No,I do not think you are any way crazy for discovering these submissive feelings of yours.At the risk of setting off another Dominants and Submissives are born that way vs made that way-I am of the school of thought that,and I am speaking only for myself here,I was born with my dominant traits.So perhaps this is your situation as well,i.e. you were born with these submissive tendencies.