Quote Originally Posted by nk_lion View Post
Look on the bright side, you have your marraige, with a husband who understands your needs enough to allow you to have a seperate dom, you are a mother to a daughter which if not a blessing, atleast a good distraction and you have your health.
Maybe not a lot to go by, but enough to start with.
nk_lion, you're absolutely right. i definitely count my lucky stars on a daily basis - how can i not? my husband, my kids (4!) - my life in general really is charmed. But this hurts; a lot. i think it goes without saying that just because i'm married, it doesn't mean i don't form attachments with other people - i mean, if i'm letting someone use and abuse me, so to speak, i think there's a huge attachment there (at least in my case, anyway).

i just don't understand how you cannot just at least have the courtesy to say "you know, things have changed, and this just isn't working" - particularly from a guy who constantly told me that i'd always be his, etc. And i hope i'm not coming across as being extremely willing to toss it all away in a second or anything - because i'm far from it. It's just that while this is the first time he's stood me up, this isn't the first time that i've gone over 10 days or so without hearing from him in any way at all; i guess it's a straw breaking the camel's back sort of thing.