What you are is fascinating and individual!![]()
But okay, here is something a little more practical. My bf likes it when I use a strap-on once in a while. Sometimes I make him worship it or suck it a little, and I'll penetrate him with it, sometimes lovingly, sometimes "forced," but always gently.
Actually, my bf's right here with me... he says the cool thing about the strap-on is being submissive. It's not painful, and it's not meant to be, but it's not as physically pleasing as some other things we do.
Interesting what you said about wanting to be dominated by a woman's masculine and feminine energies--I notice that I'm very in tune with both of my energies when I'm dominating... Sometimes I feel like a man dominating another man; sometimes I feel like I woman dominating as only women can.It sounds like maybe what you really want is for a woman to dominate you and make you *call* her Daddy... "Daddy" is a safe and authoritarian name that can probably cross gender lines.
And finally, when I'm having submissive fantasies, sometimes I fantasize about a dildo being wielded by a man. Maybe real sex is too intimate to fantasize about with a stranger.
Okay, enough out of me. Enjoy yourself!