Hi Razor,

First up, you tackled a big topic in a little bit of words.
Go you! There's a whole lot to think about and the
emotions have emerged and touched me as a reader.
Wanting, longing, losing herself. Very nice.

What can make it better?

The present tense really threw me for a loop here.

What is happening when? Or is everything happening in the now? If four years are gone, then why are we in the present tense? :-)

Yes, you've encountered one of my big no-no's.
Unless you are narrating something that is happening,
right now, then it's in the past and the past tense should be used. Period.

By changing the past to the past tense, and adding a transition to help us understand the timeline, if you can make this just a bit better.

Looking forward to the next update,

Ruby