I'm going to stand naked on a limb here

I have been guilty of both reading and writing sex stories involving children under the age of consent, often without their consent anyway. Of course people who fantasize about children under the age of 13 are sicko's.

I don't consider myself a pedophile for two reasons. Firstly I recognize these fantasies are not reality and reality doesn't quite work the same way. Secondly I am in control and do not have the urge to go out and commit these crimes.

It does distress me that clinically the reason that bars me from the paraphilias definition is simply that I function in society and have the will to not do it. As much as I loathe a child molester and support strong punishment for them in some way I really do pity them. Are they just like us but without the will to say no to themselves? That would be hell.

I don't like the definition but I don't think I actually qualify for any paraphilias by its standard.

Does anyone feel their deviant ways interfere with everyday functioning, or do you feel you lack the power to control them?