thanks everyone

My gut/conscience seems to have gone on holiday lately and been replaced by desperation. He says he is separated and has really been pretty honest with what he wants from a relationship- well that he doesn't want one. But I think I am craving real time experience and probably not thinking that straight about it. But I can feel a huge need that has taken me something by surprise- the level of it anyway.

I don't whether my hesitation is simply that I am scared and don't have the bottle for r/t experiences and maybe I'm just wanting online or whether I am actually exercising a sensible caution.