cadence,

You ask or pose an intriguing problem. My answer isn't going to help much.

Why worry about it, if it feels good then great.

Why do we go to scary movies, pay good money to be scared or ride huge roller coaster also for money. I know if it thrills me I will be back.

LOL I have done things with subs that they needed that didn't appeal to me but their reactions made it worth my effort and time.