What do you find humiliating?

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cadence,

You ask or pose an intriguing problem. My answer isn't going to help much.

Why worry about it, if it feels good then great.

Why do we go to scary movies, pay good money to be scared or ride huge roller coaster also for money. I know if it thrills me I will be back.

LOL I have done things with subs that they needed that didn't appeal to me but their reactions made it worth my effort and time.

Thanks Sir Russel, but therein lies my problem, I like it, I thrive on it, I need it, it is the after effects, not really a sub drop, but more of a guilty concience that I enjoyed something that was taboo, I then move into a bad mindset, swearing that I will never visit that task again, but secretly hoping to do it again.
I just can't figure out how to let my mind accept the fact that some things that are humiliating can be good.