Hi,
Just joined yesterday...I'm new to this, having started a relationship locally with a Dom in January and looks like I'm going to have to very sadly move on from Him.

Lots of reasons why, but i guess it comes down to this: i don't trust Him anymore, and that's a terrible feeling to discover, since he is my first Master.

I'm still sorting things out so that's why I am here. When i met him, He asked me to "open my heart, mind and soul" to him. After giving me his Collar, He made me learn his Vows and be able to recite them to him and also write him every day. He gave me assignments which i enjoyed doing, and a new name.

Things seemed to be going great until last week. And then he seemed to drop off the face of the earth, after urinating on me for the first time, then flogging me as i had my first sub-space experience.

I've been emailing him every day without a response, communicating my confusion and loneliness...and then i received a response from him today saying "I hope you are feeling better soon. but remember this is for fun."

WTF??? He's shaped me, molded me and now this...i am heartbroken. Am I just over reacting? This was more than just 'fun' for me, even though I'm married I expected...something more personal, i guess.

I don't know if this is 'done' in the D/s scene, but i replied to him "Are you or are you not my Master? You've made me very happy, and I like pleasing you. But i don't like mind games... so tell me now if this has just been a bunch of casual fucks for you wrapped up in D/s rhetoric."

Oh, i am still confused and scared, too. Any advice is greatly appreciated...and what do i do if he releases me? How do i return his Collar?
Am I crazy?