Thanks again everyone, I usually go by my gut instinct, and my gut just keeps telling me that this may not be a really great idea.
I just don't like being pushed when I am not ready.
I would prefer just to shelve the whole idea of doing any of this right now.
It would be a better idea, but I want someone who has a bit of experience with this type of play, I do not want to just go and find anyone either.
I'll be the first one to admit that I have a difficult time not to step on another's toes even when they need it.
Thank you Tom, that was nice of you to say
I just don't have to speak with him again, I just feel bad that he doesn't understand that I don't need someone to train or take over control of me, because they feel it is what I need.
Thank you Sir Russell, if you lived closer to me, I would most definately consider it