mastersgem made some good points already. I do have a few to add though.

I've engaged in some activities/interests over an extended period of time, even to the point that some people close to me would tell me that I shouldn't make those interests my life. They should simply be a part of my life because those interests are a part of me. I am not the interest itself.

Having said that, and having heard it myself, I do find it incredibly difficult to separate these interests from my life. In many respects, those interests are a significant part of who I am, so going cold turkey is not something that is either possible or desirable. Nonetheless, I have developed a few other interests, BDSM/s&m being one of them, and am trying to explore other facets of my life now. It has been difficult for me to let go of the other stuff, but I did come to a realization that, although I put a great deal of time and effort into those other endeavors, there really isn't much else I can do for myself personally, and only limited capacity for what I can do for other people, along those particular interests. Now it is time to explore other interests, and I am doing so slowly but with determination. It's taken me about 11 years to get to that point, but I am comfortable with where I am now. If you do learn to balance your life better, it will take a great deal of time and thought to figure out how best to manage it, but when you do so if you feel you need to do so (I did not with my other interest until maybe the last year or two), you will be a much better person as a result.

Life is a marathon, not a 100 meter dash. Take your time, find your way, and explore every avenue you wish to explore at your own pace. There is nothing wrong with going "all in" on certain aspects of your life, but give yourself a chance to step back and reflect at some point, and assess for yourself if thats really what you want to do. From your post, it sounds like maybe you are not ready to go "all in" on this endeavor even if you really want to. Thats okay. Once you come to that realization, then you can begin to assess what you want to do about it.

Like mastersgem, I'd recommend you talk this over with your Master. Your Master might also have some good ideas to help restore some balance to your life. Ultimately, though, its up to you to implement those ideas if they make sense to you to do so.

Good luck.