I think Gem has a wonderful suggestion with speaking with your Master about your difficulties. A discipline schedule would be of great help to you i think. That comes from personal experience, by the way. When i first began researching the lifestyle, i found it TERRIBLY difficult to pull myself away, lol. It's hard to do when you finally find other people that feel like you do and that you can talk to about your kinks and feelings.

Unfortunately, real life is still there and doesn't go away. If you cannot find a balance, it tends to remind you that it is still there in a dramatic and usually unpleasant kinda way. Good luck. i'm sure everything will work out for you.