Aren't you applying your own guilt restrictions to this purely fictional character, when writing - particularly in this genre - means you can be free to explore even the darkest corners of your imagination without fear of judgement?

I used to feel the same way, and think - I can't write that. People will think I want to do it! You get over that in time.

Also, I shouldn't imagine that a thriller writer, who regularly writes about violence and murder, has his morals or his sanity questioned. It’s only imagination – you can’t be hanged for it…even if some of the wilder stuff might just turn you on

I say, let your character go where ever she wants to go