you didnt sound harsh and i agree,i didnt mean to come acoss as miserable or self pitying ...im not too good with words lol

yes im ok to play,its not the boredom side anyway i prefer being with just my family thats how im happiest, what makes me kind of sad or reflective i guess is the fact that i am that way if that makes any sense at all.

funnily enough though i had thought about volunteering,to work with an animals rescue type place,i just need to get the confidence and look into it,excersise is a no-go area for me i have a bit of an addictive personality and last time i did that i became obsessed lol ...aaargh this is coming out all wrong,i sound like im whinging or something and im not,think i better shut up now!