Quote Originally Posted by GS42 View Post
The only way it would have any value for identifying suspicious behaviour if is your journal were being read by people you respect and trust. Because, after all, you're not taking advise from just anyone, right?

A public journal might even harm your search for a master, because, after reading a couple of pages about your thoughts and fears, I could probably tell you exactly what you want to hear, making it easier for posers to get to you.

If you want to keep a journal online, by all means, do so. Think twice about making it a public journal, though. And do not trust the journal itself as a safety-net. You must have thought of which people here you'd want reading your journal and advising you; I'd contact them directly asking to help you weed out the bad responses. You might email them or let them read your journal and get their opinion. Do not place trust in having a journal or that 'people' will warn you, place trust in individuals.

Oh, of course a good thing would be that writing about everything will give you the chance to think things through again and might help you put your thoughts in order. A plain old diary would do the same though.
Now this is some great advice and should be well paid attention to hun.

From the posts you have put up so far, it sounds like you are losing patience and I'm sorry to see it. Your journey requires you have the utmost amount of patience in your looking. You haven't been on here very long - you have to take time to meet people, to watch, learn. I know you don't want to hear something as mundane as that, god knows I never do lol especially when I've run out of patience and think I want to give up hehe

My search has been a very long and tedious one, mostly hampered by myself in many ways. I keep thinking I've had patience in my search, but truly haven't. I jump to the negative quickly, trying to weed them out before they have a real chance to start. That may not be a bad thing entirely though, lol, maybe it just means that the really intent ones will see past and help me through it?

I certainly don't have any sure fired answer, but rushing, I do know - isn't it. Exposing too much of yourself too fast isn't it. Taking on the first person claiming to be Domly isn't it either.

As jeanne suggested in your other post on how to find a Master, you may want to post in the personals for a mentor and see if you can find a friend to help you along, to talk to, to gain insight from, to draw the very necessary patience from. A mentor can take you a long way down your journey and will help keep you in solid position to look from.

Ok that's my morning babble, I need more coffee

Good luck hun