My hormones are all over the place during PMS and so I have lots of highs in emotions and also lows. So one moment I might be happy and everything seems right in the world. And two minutes later I might be crying and feel sad, but not even really have a reason for being sad. I also might feel submissive and want to give and give, please and please, and serve and serve. But then in the next moment I feel I am doing everything wrong and am worthless. I feel like a klutz and feel I should stay a thousand miles away from serving Master. Add into the physical and mental problems - the emotional factors that come with PMS and I have feelings of worthlessness and like I am insignificant. Those emotions of feeling worthless and insignificant might just pop out though also just because of a hormone spike and I might not have done anything wrong. I could have just been sitting still - been a good girl, very pleasing and had a spike in hormones that cause me to feel like Master deserves better. But then the next moment I am totally indifferent to both. I can be calm, but just want to be in that moment of calmness before the next flair of hormones raging through my body.

Later I often feel horrible guilt for things I said, did, or thought during PMS. Even though I have an "excuse" - it does not make it right to forget my status in my Master's household. I am his slave and he is the one that I want as my Master not my hormones. Master is understanding during PMS. He does not "allow" me to be outright disrespectful or bitchy. I have to remember my place even if I am not "feeling" like being in it at that moment. Just because I might not feel like being a slave, in that moment, I can't call a time out.

So what is the solution to all this?

I have heard slaves say that it is all about self-control. But really where is self-control when hormones are raging and throwing things off balance to create a very irrational person?

Often in the moment, I even have a brief moment of, "oh yeah I am being irrational because of PMS" and then I then the irrational behavior seems to kick up a notch and give me 10 "seemingly" logical reasons why I am "right" and he is "wrong." So where does self-control come into play there?

If I am able to accept and adjust to my monthly changes in energy and mood, then I am able to handle the PMS more easily. Although parts of the experience are unpleasant, I have discovered that it helps me to view things from a different perspective. If I am impulsive, irrational or irritable before my menstruation, I may decide to defer outward reactions for a few days. If I feel angry with Master, I may write down the anger in my journal. If, after a few days, it still bothers me, I then talk to Master about it. Some women learn this on their own. Others may need a lot of help from their Dominant to reduce stress and to learn ways to actively cope with the PMS.

Not only do I have work to do - to help contain my thoughts, speech and actions during PMS, but Master has work also to help me get through PMS in the best way for our relationship. As I said Master is very understanding. Master has been able to speak in a calm matter - slowly, clearly and without judgement when I start to get irrational. He is able to see what is happening and so he is calm and reassuring. That then takes that irrational peak in my hormones and calms it down. Almost like when taming a wild horse. You need to talk softly to it. You need to let the horse know you are it's friend and will not hurt it. Same goes with a woman with PMS…Not that any woman or myself am a horse…well unless Master wants me to be a pony girl. But back on topic, Master has tools and guides to help me better able serve him during PMS by helping me get through it, instead of working against the PMS he coaxes it gently to his way.

I am not saying we have our PMS battle solved or in peace treaties. We still have bumps during PMS and I do expect us to. We are human. But each month though it does get better.

I do know that the more I remind myself I have PMS daily - even many times a day - I am able to ride the wave out without reacting. It is like when you are sick with the flu and you have that one day towards the end of the virus where you start feeling better. But really are not all the way healed, so you push and do things like you are better - even though you are not totally healed. What happens then? You are kicked on the butt a couple days later and usually take a little longer healing. If you would have just let it run its course you would have healed more quickly. If I keep reminding myself that I have PMS, I get through things more calmly with less set backs in my surrender to Master. I can just kind let it run its course because I know it is there up front in my thoughts instead of I am forgetting I am having PMS and am "all better now." I become a slave with PMS instead of a slave who's a bitch.