By a 'less than ideal relationship' I meant one where one partner does act towards the other out of anger- even occasionally is too often.

You said in regards to that- 'normal relationships are like that.' That's not true at all.

I can't see that it's better that he should cut you than you do it yourself.
Wouldn't it would be better if he could help you to stop doing it altogether?

There's two issues here, knifeplay is something done as a part of extreme D/s play with experienced consenting people. It's also something that's linked to low self-esteem. I just hope you can see the difference.

You said he's cutting you & drinking your blood, & you haven't decided if you like that yet. That's also what I mean by less than ideal- you should not enter into such things until you're ready.

If I wanted to though, I could not leave him. There aren't any contracts or anything, and no safe words either. I'll admit, it HAS gotten out of hand sometimes.
That paragraph also makes me wonder if the relationship is less than ideal.
Again, I'm not there, I don't know the details, I'm just giving my opinion from what you've said. It should never get out of hand.

You seem smart Mina- you seem to be getting some positives from the relationship. It's good that you're going to school & that he doesn't mind you using the PC. All I'm saying, & I think all of us are, is to be a little careful- think about what you do & remember you have rights.

Now if I may throw in my personal opinion here(!) I think you're very young to be involved in something so heavy. I was 18 myself once, back in the time of the dinosaurs- I thought I knew it all.

There's a whole world out there.

Keep in touch & take care.

Tojo