Methinks we may have underestimated your intelligence, young lady.

One of my girls is only 19 but amazingly smart & mature. (That's online, I'm not that much of a perv....)

When you're 'ancient' like I am it's easy to forget that back when we were kids, we were the mushroooms- kept in the dark & fed nothing but- well you know.

The world is a different place now, knowledge is there for the taking- hell we oldies all thought we were the only one til we discovered the 'net in many cases.

Yes you may seem somewhat 'on the edge' & living a life that many wouldn't contemplate. However what's important is that you seem to have as much control as you need. It's great to see you're going to school, a brain like yours needs nourishment.

You make the point that a safe word might encourage him more. I've never felt comfortable with the idea of 'safe words'. I'm not sure why, but what you said is a good point.

If you really trust someone, maybe safe words don't matter? Maybe your reactions will be enough for them to stop. Maybe it depends on what you're doing.

Keep learning, none of us knows it all- & thanks for sharing. I think you've found acceptance & some friends here.

Tojo