Quote Originally Posted by Mina

Oz - While I do not have any other options (I can't imagine going back to live with my aunt and don't have money to be on my own) and wouldn't be allowed to leave anyway, I would NEVER want to leave. I love him too much. As for me willingly giving myself to him as opposed to him taking, I had already given up on life before I met him. Anything he does to me is fine. As cliche as this is, I don't know if I'd be here if it wasn't for him, honestly. I want someone to have control of my life, I don't care if that means I'm weak. I don't think he would push my limits to the point where I could seriously be hurt. He tries to maintain control, but sometimes because of his nature he can lose it. He does apologize (in his own way) later though.
This statement is one of those danger signs, clear and presenst danger. If he can't control himself... and apologizes later... but "in his own way" as you put it... You are definitely in danger of getting "battered spouse" syndrome. It will escalate in violence as you continue to make excuses for his uncontrolled behavior. If he has so much rage that he regrets it but allows it to recur, you will end up in the hospital, probably multiple times. And when he begins to tire of you... he will begin to blame you for his behavior. You need to find another option.

Sorry Mina, but that's how I see it.