I believe myself to be a true physical masochist. I've been addicted to physical pain since my early teens, at times relying on the endorphin rush like a drug. I've experimented with scratching, biting, burning, cutting, whipping, spanking, needles etc and I get pleasure out of it all. Some of this has been experienced through "self harm", and some times I was fortunate enough to have it administered by others.

I am probably not as much an emotional masochist as I am a physical one, but somehow I really appreciate suffering mentally for someone I love.
I can enjoy being emotionally toyed with, but I'm not a very strong person in that department, so again it has to be with someone I know, love and trust.

I understand there are many Doms that dont like administering physical pain as a form of punishment to their subs. I am completely with them on this, because as a masochist, if I knew I was going to get physically punished (ie:rewarded) every time I did something wrong, it would just reinforce my bad behaviour.

I think an emotional/mental punishment (for myself anyway) is far harder to deal with and greater lessons can be learned from them.

The feeling humiliation brings for me in private is euphoric. Sometimes I feel as though I could cum from being humiliated alone. I have no idea why this is. Public humiliation on the other hand has the reverse effect on me. I cannot handle public humiliation - I die on the spot.

For me Love and Pain seem to run parallel alongside each other. Where I find love, there is pain, where I find pain there is often love. The line between them in so very thin and fragile.

There we go, my speech over ^_^