Our minds try and protect us from those things that have the most potential for harm. Having a rape fantasy doesn't mean you actually want to be raped. It doesn't mean you enjoyed being raped or molested if such crimes happened to you in the past. What it means is that your psyche is taking those experiences and making sense of them.

I think that there is definite power to taking something something that had hurt or scared us in the past and turning it into something that we can find pleasure in. When you get turned on by the thoughts, it is not that you want to have the things done to you for real but for them to be done in a safe, controlled environment where you have the ultimate stopping power. You are finally in charge because you can now say no.

There is also a very thin line between the rush of adreniline that happens when we are afraid and the rush of sexual arousal. It is easy to use one to make the other seem greater. As long as you can distinguish between the two (fantasy and reality), you should feel free to enjoy them. No matter how twisted they may seem, they are the products of a healthy mind.