I am a great big vanilla milkshake with darker layers at the bottom that are just now beginning to be stirred to the surface. As a little girl I saw images of a sculpture of Laocoon that suggested to me that pleasure may be seen (and experienced) in unusual ways. Now at age 44 I have an online relationship I hope will become real-life and lead to taking things further in my growth as a sub.
Like other posters, I am interested in the psychology of pleasure and bdsm, and look forward to learning from all of you. Thanks!