my master and I were friends with benefits for about 3 years before we fell into the roles. We were fooling around and he started being more dominant with me. It turned me on and I encouraged him to continue. He apparently has had a submissive before me. He has given me a slave name as well. I basically want to explore my submissive side with someone I trust implicitly and feel comfortable with. The problem has always been time with him. Relationships always end with him because he generally puts more effort into work than anything else. This is the main reason he has no girlfriend. He is an attractive man but he cares so much about his career which is fine but he says he hardly has time for anything else. However he did promise me once a week when we first started the slave/master. Then his work became a problem and our time went from once a week to once every 2 weeks then up to once a month.
If I were to try to find another master my first question is where do I find another master whom I trust and feel as comfortable with? There is no way I am going to meet someone for the first time and then say okay lets go. I can't feel comfortable being restrained by a man I have no trust with. I would be freaking out while in the restraints wondering if I was safe with him or not. Trust in a master is absolute before you play and it takes so long for me to build that trust.
Vanilla sex is okay but it does not turn me on like it once did. I get really turned on by being told what to do while being restrained with a sexy master I am physically attracted to. I am submissive but I also want to be safe. I am not into being dominated by a phone or through a computer. It has to be in person or nothing.
I have tried to post on here asking to meet another dominant but so far nothing. He should live in the same area as myself which is toronto, ontario canada and be compatble with me on all levels. Some masters and slaves are into different things and therefore not compatible.
I think it is going to be hard to find another master and if I have to go out there looking I am afraid I won't find another master I feel as attracted to physically, or be as comfortable with or trust as much. I also feel impatient at the same time. I want to play and I feel very frustrated when I have no master to play with.