Quote Originally Posted by ashtonDs View Post
Originally posted by babypup:
i would love to say that i have taken something from those experiences, and that they have made me stronger....
but i honestly cant, its something that i struggle with everyday and a good amount of time i dont think things will ever get better.

I must speak for myself when I say that I can't take anything positive away from my experiences either. The things that give you strength sometimes are little day to day things. Looking back, over time, you see that you are different, stronger.

What you are saying here is almost exactly what I said years ago. (I didn't have a Master ) It will come. Don't bottle up your feelings. Don't just dump indiscriminately on whoever is closet either. Find partners in healing. Your Master sounds like one. Maybe this thread is another. If you need to talk but don't want to publicly PM someone. I'm sure anyone here would be happy to help.

ashton, you can take positives away from your experiences. Please remember that you are an important part of this community. You came here on a journey that crossed through your abuse. You are who you are because of the life you have lead and if you had never suffered, you wouldn't be the person that you are now, and i happen to like you!

Horrific as our experiences are/were, there were lessons learned. That in itself can't be negative. We survive, then we help other survivors. Everything happens for a reason, i believe. You have your own unique experiences that will help others...that can't be negative either.

xxx stripey