Help me use this tool wisely....

[stripedangel]

She started writing in her journal about a month ago. We have met every Sunday since she started. She gives me the journal that morning and then, after a day's preparation on my part, we come together and talk about what she wrote.
THIS HAS IN NO WAY been easy. It has been VERY rewarding, but not easy. She has praised me, blasted me, and ranted on about nothing. The original rule between us was that I could not judge, punish, or complain about anything she wrote in the journal. So taking the blasting was hard... But it has given her a chance to start opening up more.
The conversations have been wonderfully deep and thick (no pun intended). The subjects have been tough. Plus, each meeting has been very unique.
I don't know what all to tell you. But the depth of understanding of another human that this form of communication provides, at least for us, is very surprising. I am very happy with this.
I am sure that in the coming months this will settle out a lot. But its fantastic for now!

-Pastor

It is difficult, i'm sure, for you to read her rants, Pastor, as it is very scary for her to have you read them. I rant too in my journal. Try and look at it like this, though: in order to be who we are as subs/slaves, we need an outlet for the things that would not be appropriate to verbalize to our Masters. i, at first, wrote what came to mind in a rant...but now i try and say it respectfully, so that the sting isn't quite as sharp, and Master can read and understand it better, without feeling angry at what i've said. This does open the lines of communication, and it helps to remind us both that we should converse about the issues in question with respect and love, rather than angry words.


xxxx
stripey

[cadence]

It's good Pastor that her journal is helping you both communicate with each other, in a positive, constructive way.

When TG first brought up the idea of me posting a daily journal, I sincerely thought he was joking.
His reasoning for my journal is to be able to open up and let my guard down. I try to keep quiet and out of the way most times.
It's a public journal as well, and I am encouraged to post the bad with the good.
He wanted it public because I mainly keep to myself and rarely make an effort to get to know other submissives and discuss anything.
He is tyring to get me to open up more and feel comfortable discussing things around others.
He will let me have freedom to write what I would like to, but he has also said he will provide things for me to write about as well.