My Introduction

[Boundtowrite]

This may be a bit uncommon and long introducftion, but here it goes:
For years been struggling with my preferences and spending way to much time on the internet, reading & lurking. So, I decided for that final attempt and just terminate my broadband-connection. Meanwhile I joined this forum and met you lot.......
And it felt like homecoming! Such friendly people, interested in and caring for soulmates, most of them never having seen eachother…amazing. The love and devotion seen in the couples here is touching, endearing.. So intense!

Still, I felt that was all the more reason to leave the internet, fearing I would be definitely drawn into it, remaining addicted to it.

Then, the unexpected happened. I met an D/S couple online and mailed rather intense with them. During this contact I had several talks (per mail) with the dominant in which I learned much .
After I earned myself a punishment (really unintended!!) I noticed that this woman almost had a spell on me.....even didn’t mind when she started calling me “pet”! In fact, was a bit proud of it.

Obviously, she noticed that too and dispite my struggles I surrendered to her, admitting to her and myself that in fact I am a submissive –be it with a dominant part. I know this sounds crazy, submitting to someone you’ve only seen on a pic and talked to per mail (and with her slave ). But she does this thing to my mind and that’s simple magic. While mailing that evening I could almost hear her say “stop fighting, don’t be scared and give in. Let it happen and learn before stepping into a D/S relationship in real life”. …And it just felt so good!!.

Still, I am confused and still I have some doubts. Especially because after a stupid technical error I revealed my identity. Even though untill now she always has proven worthy of my trust, it is frightening.. And “online domination”??? .Am I crazy and/or stupid in doing this? Are there people around here with experience on “online domination” who are willing to help me with this?

So, chances are still I back out, retreat from the net completely….but, also….I may stay, perhaps with a different name and indeed as a submissive and the (proud) pet of an online mistress.

Boundtowrite