Hello all,
I have been reading this thread for a while and am feeling compelled to share a bit of my story. For me there have been 3 major incidents. When i was younger my older brother molested me for about 3 years. i never told anyone not even my parents. Currently we have no relationship to speak of and i had completely blocked the memories until about 10 years ago. i was living in a foreign country and was raped by a friend of mine on my brithday. This person stole my virginity from me and has made what is supposed to be a very special day every year a nightmare. Unfortunately, i thought that i had found the one. He knew all of my history and before we were married he treated me like a princess. He had swept me off my feet. On the second day of the honeymoon it was like everything changed. He became very controlling. This is not a BDSM relationship. He is very jealous and quick to anger. He often will take his anger out on me. i really would like to get out of this marriage, but i trusted him and he has control over all finances etc.
i appreciate the support that is here on these boards. i am working with some friends to try and make it possible for me to be able to leave when the time is right. But i worry what will happen to me.
i want to thank all of those survivors on these boards for all of the love and understanding that they have. And thank you for creating a space to share.