Selash and Greybeard,
I thank you so much for coming here and offering support to all of us. The world is a better place because there are people who care enough to stand up and speak out and support survivors.
Everyone else,
I thank you all for you support and prayers. We are at a cross roads right now and I still do not know what path I am going to take. I truely appreciate everyones patience and support.

As to the issue of forgiveness. I forgive becuase I know that I have to. I know that they people that have hurt me were in turn hurt themselves. I know that they mostly likely do not know anyother way, and while they may be hurting me, it is becuase of their past. I however do not know if i will forgive myself, or stop taking repsponsibility for their actions as my own. However I do know that every morning that I get up and make the effort to greet the day with a smile instead of tears, they have lost just one more ounce of control over me....