whenever the forgiveness hurdle gets in front of me, and i know i am wrong for not wanting to forgive them, it just has to be done in my mind, i tell myself all sorts of things to try and convice myself that they , all people deserve forgiveness,, sometimes i succeed and sometimes i fail,, i dont think i will ever be able to completely forgive them because it allways feels like i havent, every time i rember part of what they did too me, it starts all over again