-nods- I understand how you feel, completley....

I got myself into a lot of trouble yesterday with Ocean and MasterD. It was the most horrible thing. I cried and cried and cried. It takes a lot to make me cry, I dun even cry with pain most of the time. But know I disappointed them so much, oh it was awful. Of course I was punished by both of them, seperatly for my not listening. I find that afterward my explain my understanding of what just happened and why is what makes them the happiest. Them knowing I understand and comprehend makes them smile.

I am always wanting to do something extra though. At these times you can surprise your Master with Kinky unexpected pictures, be extra respectful, ask for new tasks, do something you dislike very much for him, write him a poem/song/story... write down everything you feel. I do not have much experience in the "making up" yet... but those are some of the ideas that come to mind.

And as always, if you are still feeling so awful, perhaps the puishment is not enough and you should request another? I do not get over punishments easily... it takes me quite sometime before I feel happy again.... but its important to remember that most Doms view it as an open and closed thing. As soon the punishment is over, the error is erased... so try not to be so hard on yourself, they know you are human.

Anya