
Originally Posted by
ashtonDS
denu, it might not be a question of not wanting to, but one of being able too. There is still so much emotion wrapped up in what happened to you I don't think it's the right time yet. It's not possible.
What I am trying to do is let go of my abuse, to release it and allow it to become detached from me. When I can look at it without all the emotion, the fear, the horror, the hate, then maybe I will be able to turn around and forgive.
Some people find it helpful to meditate on the letting go. They picture how their life would be if they could look at the abuse and acknowledge it the same way they look at their car. "I have a blue car" -fact. "I was abused" -fact. It is impossible for some to forgive while the wound still bleeds.
You are not wrong, you,re just not ready yet. ~hugs denu~