Actually, I have told it before, at therapy, to my GF - who didn't ran away and let me lay down my head in her lap.
Tried to tell it to some extent to my family, and they do understand it to some degree.
That's why I am so surprised and confused...I really really thougt I was done with it.
Perhaps it is the realisation why I in fact did submit..in combination with problems at work and the possible disease of my brother (he may or may not have cancer at the moment)
However...as exhausting as these days are...they are healing..even if it's 0317 over here right now.
And once again thrall, thanks..if we ever make it over that ocean....