Sir, I am humbled by the kindness shown in your thoughts.
I'm no longer in service to the man, partially due to the reasons you pointed at, partially due to him finding a new "toy" to get his kicks from. But surly I digress... sorry
I've moved well beyond serving myself up to those who delights have only risen to a height that is easily derived by use of such hmmmm "childish" games.
It was a far greater decesive moment which formed the bond that will forever hold me and keep me deeply committed and endeared to remain with the One I am in service to today.
As maybe you've picked up if you've read any couple of my previous posts -- I feel I am mose keenly aware than some of what diferences there are between good and evil, right and wrong, being under respectable control and subjected to forceful inflictions of abuse.
The irony is that it took going through the bad experiences to gain the depth of understanding how good the good really is.
It makes for a complete new mindset and a more comfortable willingness to give myself freely and willingly up to the One I know without doubt I can trust not to do me wrong in prcess of doing His things.
It's not about games and power and being held reign AT ALL. .
Point blank, bottom line it's about respect and trust and that is all.
The rest is left to what ever I am required to give of mysef to see His pure pleasures be taken as ever as He may so desires to have me take them.

I thank you again Sir. I hope those under your control understand the significance of having found themelve held by in hands with such good grace and heartfelt compassion as yours.