Being a guy doesn't make abuse any less real or valid than it does for the females on this thread. Just the fact that you know that what you've experienced is something you've never deserved is a step in the right direction and can only make you stronger in the long run. We are as, Flaming_Redhead put it, works in progress, so your thoughts and hopes are most welcome. Take as long as you need to get comfortable, we'll be here.