Thanks for the comments everyone.

I guess I really just don't understand what's going on. Was what happened with him like a fluke, some random anomaly of the universe? Will it go away now that he's moved & is available so very little? Will the cravings for the things he did to me, the sensations he gave me, fade? If not, what can I do to get myself back under control?

I feel like I've woken up in some foreign land, one where I don't speak the language or know the customs, and my trusty guide & translator has disappeared. I'd really appreciate some advice.

Kat