Total power exchange

[denuseri]

so very well said ID Crew Dawg

my owner and i have a very give and take dynamic at play in our relationship, constantly testing each others boundaries and levels of control, despite my declared obedience to his will and foreknowledge that i am utterly his in everyway and that my resistance may be futile i do in deed still test his resolve to control me and he not only expects me too, he wants indeed orders me too

as for being free, i have never been more free than after i acknowledged that i was totally and utterly his in every way

some time ago i made a thread addressing my experience in the type of total power exchange relationship that my owner has with me: here is a link for those that are interested

http://www.bdsmlibrary.com/forums/sh...ad.php?t=15978

[AdrianaAurora]

Prior to my coming here my exposure to philosophies other than His own has been very limited, I never questioned His dominant nature and He never had any desire to "contain" me as a person or my opinions. We have this dynamic where He has a dominant personality and I have submissive, there really isn't a way to shut that down (?), but we work everyday things out on a case by case basis. So I had never defined us as a 24/7 TPE.

Before coming here the only TPE relationships I heard defined as such where the ones where a girl basically gives up her entire life to subjugate herself to her Owner completely and ends up as a 24/7 SM slave with little or no outside contact and/or no way to terminate her "contract". It freaked me out so much I even requested Him not to call me a "slave", but I never told Him why.

Anyway that was the end of it, until recently some posts here at the Library made me start asking questions. So a few nights ago when He was packing for His trip (I do have the best timing, lol), I brought up the subject of TPE relationship. He looked at me with a "D'oh!" expression in His beautiful, usually expressionless, green eyes, LOL, "We already have a 24/7 D/s relationship". I will spare you the details of my stuttering, lol.
But of course that only made a little in me only question things more.