i have to agree.. i am not so much into the death aspect but the torture in my fantasies are totally cruel and prolonged over time to the point i am sure the victim wishes they were dead... i would never want half of it done to me in R/L...

and like you i will not share most of them but you are not sick having them.. I agree with Arria breath play can be fun and some mutilation if agreed upon before hand with someone you truly unconditionally trust .. or even more so the threat of it being done to you as i find the fear of something like that is where my highest turn on is...

Although i would never put myself in a position of possible death or suggest anyone else do it in fear of an accident... or a play gone to far.... or out of control in the heat of the moment...and it actually happening.. I myself feel that is going way to far and is totally unsafe..

Remember to always play safe .. check things out first ... ask questions about this to others that have experienced the same.. and make sure you trust the person.. TOTALLY.. If you ever feel the need to do anything like breath play .. mutilation.. or any other sort of rough play...

Just my opinion

hugs
snow