victims of abuse support for submissives

[icey]

I have a very important question for those of you who have abuse history. For a while I was speaking to my Master about the possiblity of acting out a kiddnapping/rape scene to see if it would help me with some of my nightmares/flashbacks/panic attacks. Has anyone done this?

i wouldnt recommend it!!
ive done a few re-enacting of r/l scenes in the past, one of which has included abduction and rape etc which i had experience of (im assuming thats what you're saying? sorry if im wrong)
some scenes ive re-enacted have been ok and have been fun though i wouldnt say it has helped in anyway and has always been very emotional afterwards and it can be a bit of a minefield,and in all honesty the two can never possibly compare the reality is no matter how much or what you play thats ALL it is ..just play
dont expect any miraculous results, any problems, past traumas you have wont go away or even be eased in any sense simply because of a re-enactment or a similar type scene.

some ive done have also gone very badly wrong and has left me literally cowering crying even puking in the dark, hiding in corners, in wardrobes you name it! forgetting who what or where the hell i am and that is NOT a good place to be, it takes a lot of coming out of and can fuck up your head, the mind is a very complex thing.

but the worst of all is if you go numb, ever truly had that feeling? believe me there is nothing worse than being totally disassociated from reality, you're not there the worlds not really there nothings real i cant explain it properly and its also extremely frightening for your partner...much more so than being a quaking shivering wreck.

i dont want to sound like some pompous know all (which i probably do sorry) but ffs please think very very carefully about it, your Masters not a trained psych or therapist or whatever and even if he was he's too close to you anyway, dont fuck with that stuff please ...at best you might come away thinking what was the point and maybe some ppl have maybe although i bet there very few and far between and at worst you could really cause yourselves some damage, why do you think hypnotic and/or regression is criticised and practically unused these days?

if you do go ahead be very very careful and dont even bother discussing a safe word you're really going to have to trust your Master on this one 150%

ok sorry lecture over..i'll probably get some flak for this post lol but you asked and i answered whatever you decide on take care love.