The short of it, and sorry for being blunt, is that in the BDSM level of my relationship I am a very sexual being and all I want is to be fucked. It just thrills me that my boyfriend and my mistresses will play with my mind and body to do it. I do not care what I must endure, how hard or painful it will be, how long I will wear the bruises, or how much I will cry, scream or beg; if there is a hard fuck and an orgasm waiting for me at the other end, I will take it.

Other than that I want, and fortunately have, an opportunity to learn, share and have fun with him every day. I used to think that having the perfect man for me would assuage my need for punishments and domination but I have learned instead to love him, to love the way he loves me and also to love the way I now need to be dominated even more than I used to before we met.

As for unhappiness, I deal with it the best way possible: In his arms, with a gentle word from him in my ear and a soft kiss from him on my lips. We learned that BDSM is not something we should play when one of us is not feeling good.

By the way, thank you Kostly for asking the question. You just reminded me again of how much I love him and what a lucky little sub-slut I am. I think I will find a crop now and go show him how thankful I am for his love.