I, too, am an older woman and I never ever thought I would do anything about my growing submissive yearnings but eventually I was brave and did venture forth and I'm so glad I set myself on this journey. I have a Master now and a relationship which I cherish despite recent difficulties.
You too have been brave to take the steps you've already taken, S. You seem to have good people looking out for you. If I've learned anything it's to learn, grow and be true to yourself. Value yourself and this wonderful gift you will one day give to the right man. I am convinced you will be just perfect for someone well worth your devotion.
Take care x x