Why doesn't she understand me? Is it so difficult to understand that i am confused about myself? That it is not that easy to turn from a normal gal into a submissive slut, into a slave who does anything to please her Mistress? In a matter of days, too? After all, she's asking for unconditional surrender. And that, in my humble opinion, is asking for a lot. Maybe more than i can give.

And as far as i know i never asked her for anything. Surely i didn't want her to buy those pans and pots, all that crap.
But no, that ain't exactly true. I begged for her forgiveness. I made a mistake, i came back, i asked for her forgiveness.

Then Mistress comes back and releases the restraints that have kept me spreadeagled on the bed. She informs me that she'll go to bed now and gives me the choice on what to do. Going home is of course no option. If she wanted me to go she would have told me so.
But does Mistress want me to lie in the bed beside her? Or is my place on the floor? I'm at a loss. But i guess if she wanted me at her side she would have said so too. Besides, lying on the floor would maybe show her that i realize that i'm her slave.
She's already lying in bed when i return from the living, room, carrying a blanket. I stretch out on the floor beside her bed. I hear her breathing, but it isn't the breathing of someone asleep.
„Mistress, i am sorry if i disappointed you. I think i just need a little bit more time. So i beg for you to be patient with me, please.“ She doesn't respond. „Good night, Mistress, sleep well.“
I hear her stir underneath the sheats.
„Come here to me, you fool, and warm my feet.“