I've been avoiding posting in this paticualr thread for various reasons, but here goes...

I got started online in vanilla chats back when I was still in highschool, aol and yahoo however didnt really cut the mustard, so I only had very brief exposure.

After finding my current owner and his wife in real life quite by accident and spending a wonderful year with them until they had to move (he was military at the time), I went from one unfufilling D/s relationship to another.

Desperate to find the special someone that would meet the bill so to speak, I went on Alt.com and had a wonderful time for about a month despite all the wierdos and trolls on that site. I thought I had met an awsome couple there, so I arranged to move and meet them in real life.

Allmost three months of hell followed. It was a gigantic mistake that allmost cost me my life, and still huants me still in too many ways.

Part of that story is in the following link:

http://www.bdsmlibrary.com/forums/sh...ad.php?t=15730

But...and its a very big but indeed.... it did ultimately lead to me finding my Owner again, well really he found and saved me, and still saves me to this day.

While living with him I slowly started to recover and I started going online again and reaserching in preperation to go back to school. I stumbled upon this site by accident and decided after serious consultation with my Owner and my therapist, that reading the stories might help me in my therapy, to sort of re-expose myself to bdsm and mabey even help make it possible for us to have/resume that type of relationship.

It worked very well in combination with other therapies.

About 2 years ago my father passed away and my Owner gave me permission to leave and move in my parents home in another state to take care of my mom. So I took my computer with me. One night I found out that this site had a chat room. (I have no idea how I missed that for allmost a year and a half) After talking with my Owner and weighing the pros and cons, (and begging him for the better part of half a year lol, he is very protective of me) he gave me permission to explore with certian rules I had to follow etc. He even did some online searches with me of different web sites to find the right/best one for me, naturally nothing else really compared, we allways kept coming back to this one as the best.

So here I am. As you can see above I finally got him to join as well. (he is anything if not a technophobe) Giggles.

This place has really really helped me alot. The wonderful people here are just great.

Between the constant resolve , love and support of my Owner, the help of some really great Doctors and therapists, and the wonderful people of this sight; Ive not only learned to enjoy Bondage again, I have learned to thrive in my submission to His dominion.

He and I now live down here at my mothers house together and recently married this last May 7th and are in the proccess of selling his house and business back home.

We just celebrated the aniversary of my collaring ceremony this past Nov 9th.