Hello Zarine13. I'm going thru the same thing as you RIGHT NOW. I'm a 50 y/o dominant being divorced by my vanilla wife of close to 26 years. I live in central Alabama. I've been enjoying this site for many years as much as a nonmember can. When I saw you're post yesterday, well, it made me join. This life style has been my desire from my teenage years, though it took a little while for me to understand. Back in the old days , we only that print type avenues to explore.
Wife and I tried to PLAY a few times in the past, but it didn't work for her. So I had to let it go. Now that I'm in this situation, I will be exploring and learning. I'll be out of pocket for the next few days, then out of pocket for a week or so. when I am back in this world, I'll try to contact you. (THE KEY WORD HERE IS TRY.) Hopfully You and I will enjoy each others company, and have a shoulder to cry on.
Good Luck, And keep your Chin up. Life does get better.