The hardest thing for me was not being naked in front of him. I'm quite comfortable being naked in front of just about anybody. It also wasn't play. I'll play casually with people I've never met before, albeit in a dungeon setting with a dungeon monitor. I trust people I probably shouldn't in that regard, but I don't worry much about my body. *smiles* The hardest thing for me was trusting him with what's on the inside...my heart of glass. He had it in his hand before *I* was ready, and I fought to get control of it before he could break it and ended up breaking it myself. *smh* It "only" took me 1 year with him, 6 months without him, and a month back with him to finally see that he *can* handle me and *wants* to handle me. I don't need to "protect" myself from him. I actually find the idea quite absurd now.

*blushes* I think that was TMI.