what was the hardest part...

[Pearlgem]

Great question, S.

It's always, always a fight with my pride and allowing myself to be humble and vulnerable, and to allow myself to really feel it and not just go through the motions. I feel burning shame that I let my (vanilla) self go so far, but I'm learning that it's just what my submissive self needs.
I used to find my own cunt an absolute traitor to me, but it tells its own truth.

[Paddler911]

Hi All,

This is my first post. I've been here a few times before but never joined, I wasn't going to post but felt that I had to post after bip0lar's post.

I'm in the same position as bip0lar, (after a long vanila relationship which ended badly.) I've know for along time that I needed more from a relationship, but I need to find the right person to share it with.

I think there are lots people who strugle with similar thoughts, but we all tend to look at our selves a lot more criticly than anyone else does.

If your Dom cares about you as much as you imply, I don't think thoughts like that even cross his mind.