Hi all, I’m a 35 year old woman, and I’m still trying to find myself. In my first post here I labeled myself as a sub, but I’m not sure I want to do that again. I know I’m not a Domme, but I don’t quite want to give myself a label yet, until I know myself better.

I was one of those who’s Barbies used to get tied up and raped when I was a kid. So this has been in my blood for a long time. When I was in my late 20s I had a boyfriend that was also interested in the lifestyle, and we explored it a little together, bondage, some light spanking, and things like that. I LOVED it.

That relationship ended and I met the man I am with now. We have been together for almost 8 years. Our relationship was very vanilla even though I tried to get him to see my way of looking at things. That relationship is coming to an end now. I have spent so much time being a wife and a mother that now it’s time to find me again.

I have a very aggressive personality, but when it comes to the bedroom/playtime, I want to be directed, to give up that aggressiveness. I’ve learned a lot in the past couple weeks, just reading the posts here. I hope to learn a lot more as time goes on.