After reading through this thread i'm not sure anymore what was or is the hardest part. I thought it was admitting my submissiveness to myself, but other things seem to be just as hard. Like calling myself names or being separated from Master when he's on business travels abroad.
But i learned that as hard as those things might have been, i managed to go through them. Or at least i'm learning how to deal with them. And that gives me a lot of confidence for the future.